Table of Contents
Foreword Will Smith 11
Preface: God Did Not Intend for Human Beings to Play Football 13
1 My Father's Son 17
2 Child of War 27
3 To Be Myself 37
4 Answered Prayer 45
5 "Heaven Is Here, and America Is Here" 55
6 Welcome to America 67
7 Through the Wilderness 77
8 Land of Contradictions 87
9 A Bold Gamble 99
10 Finding Myself 109
11 A Divine Appointment 119
12 Prema 129
13 A Game-Changing Diagnosis 139
14 Nearly Over before It Begins 151
15 The NFL = Big Tobacco 163
16 "In the Name of Christ, Stop!" 177
17 The Baton Is Passed 187
18 Marginalized, Minimalized, Ostracized 199
19 I Wish I'd Never Met Mike Webster 211
20 Finding Life in the Wilderness 223
21 Omaha Goes Hollywood 233
22 Concussion 245
23 From Doctor to Dad: What Will I Say When My Son Asks, "Can I Play Football, Pleeeaaaassse?" 255
Afterword: "I Bet My Medical License That O.J Simpson Has CTE" 265
Appendix: Questions from Parents about Brain Trauma and Contact Sports, Especially Football 269
Acknowledgments 285
Notes 289
Index 295