The Remembered Gate: Memoirs by Alabama Writers
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The Remembered Gate: Memoirs by Alabama Writers
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In The Remembered Gate, nationally prominent fiction writers, essayists, and poets recall how their formative years in Alabama shaped them as people and as writers. The essays range in tone from the pained and sorrowful to the wistful and playful, in class from the privileged to the poverty-stricken, in geography from the rural to the urban, and in time from the first years of the 20th century to the height of the Civil Rights era and beyond.
In all the essays we see how the individual artists came to understand something central about themselves and their art from a changing Alabama landscape. Whether from the perspective of C. Eric Lincoln, beaten for his presumption as a young black man asking for pay for his labors, or of Judith Hillman Paterson, floundering in her unresolved relationship with her troubled family, these personal renderings are intensely realized visions of a writer's sense of being a writer and a human being. Robert Inman tells of exploring his grandmother's attic, and how the artifacts he found there fired his literary imagination. William Cobb profiles the lasting influence of the town bully, the diabolical Cletus Hickey. And in “Growing up in Alabama: A Meal in Four Courses, Beginning with Dessert,” Charles Gaines chronicles his upbringing through the metaphor of southern cooking.
What emerges overall is a complex, richly textured portrait of men and women struggling with, and within, Alabama’s economic and cultural evolution to become major voices of our time.
Product Details
| ISBN-13: | 9780817391294 |
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| Publisher: | University of Alabama Press |
| Publication date: | 08/30/2016 |
| Series: | Deep South Books |
| Sold by: | Barnes & Noble |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 288 |
| File size: | 3 MB |
About the Author
Jay Lamar is Associate Director of the Center for the Arts and Humanities at Auburn University and coeditor of the anthology Reading Our Lives. Jeanie Thompson is Executive Director of the Alabama Writers' Forum, a partnership of the Alabama State Council on the Arts in Montgomery, and author of four collections of poetry, including White for Harvest: New and Selected Poems.
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The Remembered Gate
Memoirs by Alabama Writers
By Jay Lamar, Jeanie Thompson
The University of Alabama Press
Copyright © 2002 The University of Alabama PressAll rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-0-8173-9129-4
CHAPTER 1
Coming through the Fire
C. Eric Lincoln
Alabama: The Tender Years
I shall always be sentimental about Alabama. It used to be my home. There were cotton fields and clay pits, and an abandoned limestone quarry where we swam in the summertime. And there were dusty roads like velvet to the tough soles of our bare feet. And creeks full of perch. And peach orchards to rob. And snakes not to step on. And county fairs once a year. And on Sunday mornings there was the wonderful smell of frying chicken — to be ready with lots of rice and turnip greens when the preacher came by to eat dinner after service. And there was the procession to the Sunday school that began at Miss Katie's house and grew by ones and twos and threes all the way to Village View Methodist Church on the corner of Hines Street and Plato Jones Dirt Road.
It was just a little town in north Alabama. So small that when anybody left to go to Nashville or Chicago, everybody missed him before the train had whistled on past the county line. Athens wasn't much of a town, but that's where I was born, and there is a part of me still there, left over from those tender years.
The first consciousness of race comes early. It is not something you learn in the same way you learn about stinging caterpillars or poison ivy. You do not have to learn it from some overt experience. It is a pervasive awareness, an insidious thing that seeps into the soil of consciousness, sending its toxic tendrils deep into the walls of the mind. It is like a mold, a blight. If you scrape it away here, you find it mockingly virulent there. Once the concept of race takes root in the mind, it is there to stay. You cannot run away from it because it is inside you. You cannot close your eyes to it because it is an idée fixe that never leaves the retina of awareness. You may cover it with an intellectual tarpaulin as you would cover a weed patch on an otherwise perfect lawn with a sheet of black plastic. But the landscape is marred by the patchwork, and when it is removed, the weeds you thought were dead come springing back to life.
In the South, where I was raised, the pervasive awareness of race was helped along by a series of "lessons" learned in the process of growing up. These lessons were sometimes impromptu, and often impersonal, but they were never unplanned or unintended. They were always there in the arsenal of race and place waiting for the most effective moment for inculcation. Their sources were varied, and as might be expected some of the most traumatic derived from everyday personal relations with white people. But others were carefully taught at home or in the informal councils of the elders as the fundamentals of black survival. Some were taught in more stressful settings by the local police or by night riders as constant reminders of the inevitability of the status quo, white over black, now and forever. And no nonsense about it. Depending upon the source and cause of such "instruction," the lessons were often accompanied by loss of employment, foreclosure, loss of credit or credibility, intimidation, personal assault, jail time, a "bad name," or any combination of these. Repeated failure to learn meant long-term incarceration or permanent exile. Peremptory challenge meant death.
A First Lesson
The summer when I was nine years old I went to the county health office in the basement of the county courthouse to be immunized against some childhood disease. As I stood in a long line of children, waiting for my turn at the needle, I became aware that some of the boys and girls were not required to wait in line. These favored children, who were taken as soon as they came into the room, were all "white." I was vaguely aware, of course, that they were somehow different beyond the fact of their whiteness, for this uncanny, unexplained awareness is the first bitter fruit of acculturation. But I had, as yet, no appreciation of the deadly meaning of that difference. I had swum and fished and fought and filched and played with anybody who would play, white or black. What did it matter, if you could hit the ball and run the bases? As often as not my playmates and fellow adventurers had been white, for these were the children who owned the baseballs, the bicycles, the air rifles, and all the other toys and paraphernalia that enhanced the fun and adventure to which every boy seemed somehow entitled. Most of the time white boys and black boys played together without incident. The major problem for black children was managing to escape from the ever-escalating chores of the household, not the acceptance of the white children waiting to play with them. My grandmother cooked for a white family, and I had always felt at ease anywhere in the town. People knew her because she "cooked for the Martins." And I guess I expected to be known and accepted by extension. How, then, could I have known that I was about to challenge one of the fundamental privileges of white identity when I presented myself unbidden to be serviced? I was nine years old: How could I have known that this instance of tending two races at the same time in the same place was itself an extraordinary concession to expediency in protecting the town from some sort of epidemic? How could I have known that had we been adults instead of children such a breach of convention could not have happened if the whole town had been dying of cholera or whatever, expediency notwithstanding?
I could not have known any of this, so in my childish determination to enter into the spirit of the game the white kids seemed to be playing, I stepped forward with some newly arrived white children and offered my arm without being specifically bidden to do so. The very next second I learned my first lesson in race relations. The nurse grabbed my outstretched arm and flung me brutally back against the wall. "Boy!" she scowled threateningly, "Get back in line! Get all the way back there! All you niggers have to wait!" It was brutal, it was direct. And it was perplexing. As I stood against the wall rubbing my arm, I soon came to realize that it was not my arm that was hurting, it was my soul. There was a sort of numbness, a dead feeling. The pain was inside me and I would never be able to rub it away. Over and over I repeated the words: Get all the way back there! All niggers have to wait! All niggers have to wait! All niggers have to wait! All niggers have to wait! Wait! Wait! Wait! Nigger, wait!
My first lesson was a difficult one, for it offered no explanation, no rationale, just, "All niggers have to wait." Why? For what? I did not know that the why had already been answered, and that I was supposed to know the answer. It was presumed to be innate in my being. Ultimately, the answer was inured in the color of my skin. That was why, and I was supposed to know that. The question for what? was endless in application: for an education, for a job, for a place to live, for a ride on the bus, for a space on the elevator, for a place to go to school, for buying a loaf of bread, for ginning a load of cotton, for a chance to vote, for justice in the courts, and even for a chance to fight for the homeland. I was supposed to know that too. All niggers have to wait! and since I was obviously a nigger in the mind of the nurse, I was charged with knowing all that by the ripe old age of nine.
The next lesson in race relations came close on the heels of the first, and this time it was learned not in the strange, unpredictable world of the white man but from the lips of my own grandmother. It was a curious lesson indeed, and one I was not to fully understand until succeeding years unlocked the remarkable esoterics of history and economics that structured the South in confusing paradox. It happened this way:
I lived with my grandparents on the edge of town in a frame house on Westview Street. It wasn't much of a street, really, and when it rained too hard it was impassable to all except the most determined pedestrian traffic. Yet we were only two blocks from the edge of the white community — "where the sidewalk begins" — and scarcely eight or ten blocks from Courthouse Square, the center of the town itself. Horses and wagons were still common in the town, and indeed they remain so in gardening and small-scale farming to this day.
One rainy Saturday morning a white man knocked at our door and asked to borrow a singletree. He explained that his wagon, loaded with firewood, was stuck in the mud a little way down the street, and he had broken his singletree in his efforts to dislodge it. My grandfather had a horse and wagon which he used for odd jobs of gardening and hauling about town, and for "farming" his three acres of cotton. As he was sick in bed, I offered to fetch the "tree," whereupon Grandma ordered me into the house and directed the white man to the barn to find the piece for himself. Then she immediately dispatched me behind him to make certain that he made no unauthorized acquisitions. When the man brought the singletree back half an hour later, he again knocked at the front door. However, Grandma refused to answer the door, and a "look" from her conveyed perfectly the message that I had better not answer it either.
A few minutes later the white man went around the house and knocked on the back door. Ma Matt immediately got out of her rocking chair, smoothed out her apron, and went to open the kitchen door.
"Yes?" she said.
"I brought back your tree," the man said. "I got my wagon out of that mudhole, and A'nty, I'm much obliged to you."
My grandmother was not a black-skinned woman, but at that moment her face darkened so that I became a little frightened. I had never seen her so angry.
"What did you say?" she demanded. "Didn't you call me 'A'nty'?" She shook the heavy singletree at the man, who retreated rapidly across the back porch and down the low steps to the ground. "Well, I ain't your A'nty!" she declared. "And if you don't know your manners no better than that, then you get on out of this yard right now!" With that she threw the "tree" at the man and he hurried out of the yard and down the street to his wagon. Had not Grandpa appeared at the door to see what the commotion was about, I'm certain she would have chased that white man all the way to the pavement!
When Mama Matt had had a chance to cool off a little, I asked her why she had become so angry.
"Didn't you hear that white man call me 'A'nty'?" she asked disdainfully. Her face was starting to darken up again.
"Yes ma'am," I answered hastily. Then, with well-calculated innocence I ventured: "But the people you work for, Miss Lidie and Mr. Martin, they call you 'A'nty'?"
"Yes!" she said sharply, "but he ain't Miss Lidie and he ain't Mr. Dubbie Gee. He ain't nothing but a po' white cracker, and ain't no po' white trash gon' come up in my yard and call me no 'A'nty!' Po' white trash don't count for nothin'!"
This was indeed a strange world, and it was growing increasingly complex by the day. I had hardly learned that there are important distinctions between white people and people who are not white before I was required to learn a second lesson — that not all white people are the same. Po' white trash don't count! They could be required to come to the back door, just like colored people had to go to the back doors of the "quality" white folks downtown. And you could say "yes" to them, though to "real" white folks you had to say "Yes, sir!" and "Yes, ma'am!" You could even chase them away from your house if they insulted you by calling you "A'nty," which was considered an honorific if used by quality white people. Later I was to hear Mr. Martin refer to poor white folks like the woodman as "pore-assed peckerwoods"; and many times I heard him tell Grandpa that "one good nigger is worth half a dozen of them redneck crackers spitting 'round Courthouse Square on Saturday." Later, I was to hear him elaborate on just what a "good nigger" was, and that would be another lesson in the race relations everybody was supposed to understand.
Counting Cotton Money
The town in which I lived did not afford a public high school that black people could attend. There were two public high schools for white youngsters, but as far as the city fathers and the county administration were concerned, education for black children should not exceed the sixth grade, especially if higher education for blacks meant scaled-down appropriations for white schools. And of course, for black and white children to attend the same school was a notion beyond the possibility of conception in the Alabama of that era.
There was, however, a private high school for blacks in the town. It was a missionary school, established by the New England–based American Missionary Association shortly after the Civil War. And it was a better school than any the city might have provided had it had a mind to do so. Very possibly it was the best school in north Alabama. It was run as a missionary expression of the Congregational Church, and its interracial faculty was disproportionately blessed with dedicated Christian women from Massachusetts and Connecticut.
Tuition at Trinity High School was twenty-seven dollars a year, but since no one ever had twenty-seven dollars to pay in a lump sum, tuition was computed at three dollars a month. Even this sum was difficult to come by, so more than half of the student body were either working for the school or were on scholarships provided by New England philanthropy. As for myself, I first started earning my tuition when I reached the third grade by hauling horse manure from Grandpa's stable to spread on the school garden at fifteen cents per wheelbarrow load. Then, when I was thirteen, our home burned to the ground; Grandpa was sick again; there was no money in the house. Mama Matt and I went out into the nearby fields where the cotton had been harvested, and after several hours of effort managed to "glean" a large sackful of cotton "lint." School was open ... and I had to have books. And books cost money if you went to a black school.
Early next morning I put the sack of cotton on a wheelbarrow and pushed it into town to the gin. The manager of the gin was a tall red-faced man who always wore a cigar stub plugged into the corner of his mouth. I had seen him before when I had gone there with Grandpa, but I had never spoken to him. I did not know his name, but he was standing in the doorway of his office as I pushed the wheelbarrow upon the platform.
"What you got there, boy?" he asked as he wobbled the cigar stub from corner to corner of his small, tobacco-stained mouth.
"I've got some cotton I'd like to sell," I said.
"You steal it, nigger?" he demanded. When I assured him I did not, he ordered me to "put it on the scales."
I hung the bag on the long iron balance that is a symbol of cotton country all over the South. The white man adjusted the pea, and when the balance was struck I could see that the bag of cotton weighed exactly forty-one pounds. Cotton lint was selling at nine cents a pound. Allowing a pound for the bag, I made the calculation that I would receive three dollars and sixty cents. I would use part of the money to buy something to take home for breakfast. The rest would go for books and tuition. My musings were interrupted by the white man's order to dump the cotton into a bin he pointed out to me. I did so. When I emptied the bag, I rolled it carefully and followed the white man upstairs into his office to be paid. I was very proud to be taking home some money so that my family could eat again. Suddenly, I was the man of the house. Ma Matt would be mighty proud of me.
The white man sat down behind a battered old desk and busied himself with some papers. I waited with a carefully controlled impatience, for I wanted very much to be able to get on home in time to go to the store for Mama Matt before going to school. At last the man looked up as if he was surprised to see anyone standing there. He seemed very annoyed, and the cigar stump wobbled back and forth around his mouth like a bottle stopper on a trotline.
"What'cha want, boy?" he asked in the suspicious, measured tones of someone about to make trouble.
(Continues...)
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Table of Contents
Contents
Preface Jay Lamar and Jeanie Thompson,Coming through the Fire C. Eric Lincoln,
What Do You Do for the Place? Patricia Foster,
The Truth the Heart Knows Fannie Flagg,
Swing Low: A Memoir Mary Ward Brown,
The Humanistic Black Heritage of Alabama James Haskins,
Growing Up a Poet in Alabama Andrew Glaze,
Stalking an Early Life Helen Norris,
Learning to Swim Wayne Greenhaw,
The Other Sun of God Nanci Kincaid,
The Ghosts in My Grandmother's Attic Robert Inman,
Alabama Breakdown Andrew Hudgins,
The First Place Phyllis Alesia Perry,
A Half Mile of Road in North Alabama Rodney Jones,
When the Opry Was in Ryman and We Still Believed in God William Cobb,
The Heart of Dixie Frye Gaillard,
Thunderhoof and the Mantel Clock Sena Jeter Naslund,
Growing Up in Alabama: A Meal in Four Courses, Beginning with Dessert Charles Gaines,
Coming Home Judith Hillman Paterson,
Epilogue: Regional Particulars and Universal Implications Albert Murray,
Afterword Mark Kennedy,
Contributors,